Then, because our minds are scary places, my mind went back to earlier this week when I was weighed at the doctors' office. I weigh one lb MORE than I did AFTER I had BLAKE almost 10 months ago!!! Some of you may think- "so what? 9 on 9 off, right?" or the classic
"no, Katie, you look great... for having two kds" or "lbs don't matter"
The worst part is that this amount is actually UP about 4 or 5 lbs since I ran on my Birthday!!
(TO ADD TO MY LAMENESS, I WANTED TO ADD THE PICTURE OF ME AND HEIDI HOLDING HANDS CROSSING THE FINISHING LINE IN ALL OF OUR SKINNY POST BABY GLORY....BUT I CAN'T FIGURE OUT HOW TO ADD A PIC HERE, AND NOT AT THE TOP OF THE POST!!)
You can see the need for a pity party, right?
I realized that all three kids were asleep. (three including the really BIG kid I call JT) I laced up my new running shoes, and strapped on my Ipod and took advantage of the rare sunny day we are having. I started to run around my neighborhood thinking- I have been to the gym everyday except Sunday for the past two weeks, I have done so many weighted lunges that my wobbly legs make jello look solid, I have worked so hard in my spin class that I must have pedaled to china and back and yet here I am -- MORE than I weighed after Blake!
BUT, I turned the corner, to end the fourth mile of my run to hear PINK singing in my IPOD "SO WHAT?! I'M STILL A ROCK STAR..." and it hit me
SO WHAT I can't even add the pictures I want to this lame BLOG?
SO WHAT I forget to take pictures of my kids doing awesome things when every other supermom seems to remember?
SO WHAT I go to the Gym everyday but ruin it by baking and eating all night?
SO WHAT I weigh a lb more than I did after Blake.
...for some crazy reason, I am soooo happy! I really am a ROCK STAR!
(special shout out to PINK! - thanx -)